im in a very neat spot, thanks a lot, now ive got, guilt hanging over me, like a rot, ive been shot pay no mind to me im just hot in this spot because i have the silver spoon but its not what I thought and what i thought, that i got, would be not be eating me inside i divide my life into pieces just so i can self deprive, my heart, from a start, ill depart from what you truly expect, i detect my mind desolving, and i dont want you to be next i dont want you to be next why do I go? why do I go? why do I go? Crazy?? so let me break it down safe and sound everybody listen thoughts glisten when you give em room, to fire like pistons, and they hand you the weapon, gleaming youre itching to fire, youve got desire, pull the trigger please, its down to the wire sanity leaves as my vanity stays embracing my old lazy ways of past days, simply lying in bed, grows not mans head, but instead he is rolling around in dismay and why does he feel like this, surely theres hope, an up slope at the end of this dangling rope? better run while you can, or youll be like this man, with a chance and all you can do is be damned somewhere inside my own person i find that i never will ever become, the person they want, but the person that taunts, cause my brain just wont succom, so you can call me crazy and maybe just maybe there somewhere i might find, something to heal myself, make me someone else, theres no cure for a man my kind, why is it so, does he know where he goes? when he acts like a fool at any minute? hes a on track for a minute but then he slacks for a minute and when he wants it he wont see it and it drives the man crazy that he feels this lazy but his head is still a littly hazy, but its a hazy that will slay me unless i get a little crazy, looks im gonna get crazy Crazy! why do I go? why do I go? why do I go? Crazy?? im in a very neat spot, thanks a lot, now ive got, guilt hanging over me, like a rot, ive been shot pay no mind to me im just hot in this spot because i have the silver spoon but its not what I thought and what i thought, that i got, would be not be eating me inside i divide my life into pieces just so i can self deprive, my heart, from a start, ill depart from what you truly expect, i detect my mind desolving, and i dont want you to be... Crazy

as the sun sets the day grows dry ill get into bed and close my eyes something captures me, takes hold of my sight, I’ve grown a love that new night up at night late when im ready to sleep, just gotta close my eyes tight, and count down sheep, then all the thoughts from the day flood my thoughts, its like a razor blade, slicing swift, its too damn hot, never mind im not, maybe im just cold ill put one leg out, weaving sheet and blanket folds, Then my eyes spring open, and the fire begins, Why is it now, and not then, that my day must begin I get up walk around, I try hard not to pace, All for naught, I'm just walking and my steps I retrace That's alright, I didn't want to go to sleep tonight Too much work, too much thought, all part of my inner fight and I’m afraid i truly am, the fear is deep inside of me where will all these thoughts go when i drift off to sleep, ill remember me from a dream i could have had a tough break, luckily, just for me, its dawn, and I’m still awake its four a.m. somewhere as the sun sets the day grows dry ill get into bed and close my eyes something captures me, takes hold of my sight, I’ve grown a love that new night and the tossing and the turning, no it never grows old, i kind of like the insomnia running through my bones and if someones gonna ask me why I’m so tired, ill look at em with teary eyes and tell em that I’m really quite wired never mind I’m not, maybe I’m just weird, i have the shadow from the night before, its ugly head has reared and when if find myself stuggling to get this in one take, ill reboot with some caffeine, maybe you can relate, relations stop there, its at the ceiling i stare, with heavy thoughts and heavy hands, and slight fears for nightmares, i just hope that i will become brave one night, so i can truly be the victor of this tiring inner fight i don’t wanna be afraid, and thats the truth I’m telling you, I’m tired of being tired, and my own self abuse ill be sober, ill be free in my sweet escape, luckily just for me its dawn, and I’m still awake luckily just for me its dawn, and I’m still awake(repeated) its four a.m. somewhere as the sun sets the day grows dry ill get into bed and close my eyes something captures me, takes hold of my sight, I’ve grown a love that new night

its late night dim lights, i really gotta know where they solo cups at, gotta fill the cup up gotta keep the funup when im dry i turn around and i come back all the way up, dont forget to tilt the cupat a 45 degree,so neat, solo cups stacking up at these degrees they think they are icosilese and the neon glows, like girls pretty pink clothes, hot like the microwave after coooking pizza rolls dangerous like the warning lable at the punch tap its dark … wheres the bathroom at and my cup still full, and yet its empty somehow if i turn it around, take a sip and put it down, is this buzz in my head coming from whats in my drink, or is it the fly in my chest nagging at me to think and i walk around slowly tip toeing and roaming i talk to the people i dont know, but when they think they know me, ill flatter them surely ill depart the scene with a “let’s go” and as we grow fonder, our talks are like water, going like freeflowing liquid, you look like youre decent, I look like im seasoned, but too much water im seasick and my cup is still full yet its empty somehow is there a hole in my cup, or am i thinkin out loud? i just grabbed the stuff, i just filled it up i think there might be something wrong with my solo cup (x2) its not dumb, that i wanna have fun, kick back, go out with the boys, just gonna check out the scene, get a little obscene, but no worries its all a ploy, everybody goes fast, no time to waste, the more impaired the better, but its not to long, before we all sing the same song, soon to a toilet be tethered and the toilet paper rolls, to whipe to vomit off my clothes, feeling like i just ate a batch of rancid pizza rolls, i smell like i did not take a shower at all, and i feel like ill never get to leave this bathroom stall, i leave my cup full, its still there when I come around, when i wake up in the morning and its empty somehow, is the headache in my head coming for what was last night, or is the fly in my chest, keeping me in this blurry sight but i roll out of my bed,  this ringing in my head, grab towel and and my vision zooms, to the shower that I’m led, the hot water is dead, it seems rather right for this tune and we grow fonder, me and this here water, this going and free flowing liquid, I look like I’m decent, but I’m truly seasick, and my eyes will be bloodshot red Chorus

I wanna share the world with everybody I know And I wanna show the world every thought that I can grow, But when I break, I start to shake, and my senses are shattered, A single tear represents fear as it grows, it falls and splatters She holds out her arms and let's me right in, She holds out the heart, that seems to be just as broken, She tells me without words that she will always be open, She insists, with laugh, "hey friend, You're not broken" i say i don’t believe you, and she says “look at me” so I look her in the face, and she’s as broken as me, she leans in and she tells me that she feels what I feel, that she sees whats in me, and she knows that its real, she takes me by the hand and takes me to a place, she says its quiet here, we have some time to retrace, start from the top and put me in your point of view, tell me all your demons and all of what you’re going through, and still i rebel, i say my demons are my own, i say that i can surely cope, and i can handle it on my own, she looks me in the eye, and we both know i can’t, so ill spill all of my insides and start my silly rant, Im a mess, and i don’t know what I’m doing anymore i start out on the bed and then ill end up on the floor, i feel broken and i feel alone without my door open, it makes no sense for you to say those words “you’re not broken” I wanna share the world with everybody I know And I wanna show the world every thought that I can grow, But when I break, I start to shake, and my senses are shattered, A single tear represents fear as it grows, it falls and splatters She holds out her arms and let's me right in, She holds out the heart, that seems to be just as broken, She tells me without words that she will always be open, She insists, with laugh, "hey friend, You're not broken" A close look at the phrase, not long but the meaning, A meaning so fleeting, that believing is retreating, But still she persists, and she's so sure of those words, It seems as if it hurts that I won't accept those words of hers I have good reason, because they're words I tell myself, Words I thought would surely help, if i administer a shrill yelp,  Because it becomes unbearable this unshakable pain, Like a reposition and my mind is what's being reclaimed But the eyes tell the truth, and hers, though they shine, they don't lie, I see it in her eyes, and those eyes,hard they try, Prying at my eyes just to get me to see,  If we're all a little broken, none of us can truly be I ask her will you stay awake and help me with this thing, Because I can't do it alone, and your words, with me they ring, She says, let's make a club, One for us to find the answer, It'll be our little club, combat our struggles with laughter.  I wanna share the world with everybody I know And I wanna show the world every thought that I can grow, But when I break, I start to shake, and my senses are shattered, A single tear represents fear as it grows, it falls and splatters She holds out her arms and let's me right in, She holds out the heart, that seems to be just as broken, She tells me without words that she will always be open, She insists, with laugh, "hey friend, You're not broken"

hey ma look at me i just got the newly issued magazine its me on the front page that youll see its me that they keep showin on your screen it lies on my chest, this vest made of gold put it on myself to make my lies more bold and im cold and im cruel and i will withhold what i really want from you, is it new, is it old? hey there, its unfair that i live my life out of their dispair its me up there in the all power chair and i pick and I chose all the whens and the wheres cause im not a nice guy, as it may seem i have my demons on my sleeve, take a second think deep, if you really want a piece of this me, the new me thatll tear you into pieces so hey you, look at you, you seem so happy, wait a second let me help you, there now youre crushed im just a crutch, one you never think you need till im gone, and when im gone, its like a bomb went off, a fatal clot so hey you yeah you, why dont you tell me why I make these things, and tear them down, it just seems un healthy cause i wanna help i really do, but all i seem to do is crude, Ill kill your soul and ill laugh about it, all because im in the mood Im the monster under your bed you laugh about, you think im dead i come for you when you are weak, when youre at your worst Im at my peak inside of this place is my very own prison its filled to the brim with its very own vision to break me into pieces, like i did you only this time there is no undo no back i can hit to make my escape, no cape from a superman, its my mistake the cell i am given is void of the light i wish i could see i try hard as i might but as i close my eyes, i only see you staring at me sayin what did you do i killed your soul and you let me do it, and the worst part is i dont feel ruined Im the monster under your bed you laugh about, you think im dead i come for you when you are weak, when youre at your worst Im at my peak we wait for the day where the people seem alright it lingers on the border, but itsalways a fight we wait for the day, where the struggle here is gone they say it wont be long, but hey, they could be wrong (x6)

Do you see me show up ever so slowly onto your display screen, captain theres a problem something that went previously unseen, theres an unidentified object, in the water and its gaining speed, quickly change your course, theres an unknown force you should heed and it goes without saying, but ill say it anyway, if you dont know whats around you then you may want to stay away, but for the brave the very few, the some of you that will stay, just know that what you join will bring about a brand new way, a brand new way of thinkin, a brand new way of sinkin, a brand new way of changin, what everyone else is thinkin a brand new way of thinkin a brand new way of sinkin, just let me know and well get to work on this thing that weve been thinkin a brand new way of thinkin, a brand new way of sinkin, a brand new way of changin, what everyone else is thinkin a brand new way of thinkin a brand new way of sinkin, im just a blip on your little radar and it is a blip that has just started blinkin sound the alarms and sound em really loud im comin through, im comin for ya now this is not a drill, soon youll find out im only here for you now youre along for the ride, better buck up tight sound the alarms im comin through i was just a blip, but no that blip reads true Yo a true blip is a new blip, blinking bright and making you slip, youre wondering, questions on your lips, breaking walls and red tape ripped, and often is they way of the red tape that they made, its the barbed wire of the brain that i will cut with shears of the brave, because the radar sweeps and blips will blink, loudly on ya radar screen, and soon the dot will be unseen, you see it’s meaning it represents me, and ill try to kill my lack of free will, your bleeding mind and un-inked quill, ill get you to write ill get you to fight you see, this is not a drill, its just a brand new way of thinkin, a brand new way of blinkin, a brand new way to open your eyes, and fly while they are sinkin, its a brand new way of thinkin, a brand new way at wits end; i was just a blip on your little radar, but the blip is alive, and lies are shrinkin chorus

wouldnt it be nice if we could all live twice if we could go to the moon if we could stay the night and would it be nice if we could see the light if we knew what to do all of the time i think it would be nice if you were mine and i could do what i want i would use your mind i think it would be nice if i could give my eyes to someone who sees black all of the time yo its a tree do you see what i see do you wanna be free let me show you what i see its a door through the floor, thats not open anymore, it has life in its body and its rotten to the core, but by choice, i dont think, the world around it only shrinks, let me rest let me think the tree is gone in a blink and when your eye shuts, let it open again, befriend the unearthed tree and see your new vision bend because if you saw what i see you may just want to sleep you may just want to think deep and keep these creeps on the brink of reality, the tree is smothering my sanity all this sight is leading to is reruns of my vanity but dont you worry friend, ill just take you to the place where i go to think, i close my eyes and pace because its truly bliss to know not whats behind you to know not whats ahead, because vision truly blinds you

you see noboy tells the chiken that he shouldnt cross the road, its just a joke that we all tell to keep from getting old but we’ll grow to that point some day its true, its not about who you know, its about what you do (x4) look both ways or youre gonna get flat you cross that road and you end up on your back i dont know where to go, except across the road, and maybe, im not comin back (x2) so start the tale for me, right from the beginning, was it me who was the victor was it me who was winning, you see i nearly lost my life just trying to get accross the way trying to make life a stage engage a new wave of change and its in eyes where it lies the true will and desire, where you can see the fire never disguised, and never a liar so take the end away from me, i hope i never see it coming, i will look straight ahead, disregard traffic oncoming and if the heaadlights perpendicular should catch my peripheral i should hurry my pace or else life be subliminal and a new life would be born for me upon the rough pavement a museum of scorn, and a reminder belated but if you see me let me go, i was always doomed remember for i do not have the capacity to truly surrender and if you wished me be well, as you think what you will you see i always wondered what i would look like as roadkill look both ways or youre gonna get flat you cross that road and you end up on your back i dont know where to go, except across the road, and maybe, im not comin back (x2)

listen, its rather convenient that we in our own world are kind of self deviant its meaningless, the clenest realization is meeting us deafeating us, just cause we wanna be a genius but i never worry my troubles will dissolve in a flurry, my face will be hurting but ill make it in a hurry because i wanna do it my way, and the normal way is dirty, look, i got an hour till its time, ill hit till its done and at the end of tis ryme, youll see the perfect crime, cause ive done it my mind i smiling cause im laughing cause im feeling sublime im working till i got nothing left to go, wait, the deadline was an hour ago? you think in your mind that you dont know what to do you dont know what to do so you put it off of you, oh but as time goes by and the seconds seem to fly you might realize that your eyes are now wide oh but you look a little closer you look a little closer, the print becomes bould, the weight you start to shoulder and you say maybe next time cause this time is through, i already screwed it up, there aint anything to do and you look a little deeper you loom a little deeper the drop becomes steeper and the fall is now beneath ya and you wish you had a hand, something to hold onto, cause now youre falling, and the it wont end soon listen, its rather convenient that we in our own world are kind of self deviant its meaningless, the clenest realization is meeting us deafeating us, just cause we wanna be a genius wait i already said that, am i crazy, am i in tact? i had it all tracked, where did it go bad, im turnin into a maniac, its a brain i lack look, i was feelin so fine, i thought i had the time, to turn around on a dime it was the perfect crime, only i got caught, now im distraght, gimme a rematch, of the fight i just lost ill fight it till i got nothing left to go, but i have already lost, that was ages ago you think in your mind that you dont know what to do you dont know what to do so you put it off of you, oh but as time goes by and the seconds seem to fly you might realize that your eyes are now wide oh but you look a little closer you look a little closer, the print becomes bould, the weight you start to shoulder and you say maybe next time cause this time is through, i already screwed it up, there aint anything to do and you look a little deeper you loom a little deeper the drop becomes steeper and the fall is now beneath ya and you wish you had a hand, something to hold onto, cause now youre falling, and the it wont end soon

I always said I would never ever let myself feel this way I always said I would look away, let it pass by day by day (x2) And then she walked in Un invited I tried to lock my door. But she was already in In the door and in my head And now I just want more (x2) So this doesn't usually happen you can see it's kinda weird I got a shot of anxiety Runnin ear to ear But it's also a smile That's runnin that way I want to fight it bad But I couldn't make my case She stared right into my eyes She seemed unimpressed Until she could see my heart Beaton through my chest And my cover is blown just like that I guess I shoulda froze Maybe fake a heart attack. If it were that easy, It wouldn't have a word It wouldn't be a myth And it wouldn't ever hurt But it does and it will And it won't be easy I can't tell if I'm happy Sad or just queasy And that's what it does, Relentless in that way Should I stay in my seat Or should I pace And after all It still could a crock But it doesn't change the fact That my door is unlocked. I always said I would never ever let myself feel this way I always said I would look away, let it pass by day by day (x2) And then she walked in Un invited I tried to lock my door. But she was already in In the door and in my head And now I just want more (x2)